Courage above fear.

I’ve battled a fear of heights for the longest. People question me how can I manage to fly and not manage to go on rollercoasters or be above tall buildings. No one will ever understand, roller coasters just have me feeling funny and unstable. I’m always feeling very anxious when it comes to being so high. With flights that’s a whole different story. Since I began solo travelling I just knew that I had to overcome my fears. When flying I always fall asleep, I don’t think I’ve stayed awake on a flight for more than 2 hours. 

I think people over exaggerate when they talk about planes. I understand that accidents take place but to put that as a reason to not to fly will just only make you miss out on the experience but also the chance of visiting some incredible places. I discovered that when you overthink things you put yourself in that predicament of wanting to face your fears. If I didn’t start flying alone I think til this day I would have avoided flying. Overcoming fears is taking new steps, it’s like learning how to walk again. Point being you’ve to enable yourself to want to take this step otherwise fears can end up over powering you. I learnt that everything about flying excites me, from my adrenaline running through my body, to my heart beating at 90mph.I discovered myself and it took far too long, I’m still discovering more at this moment of time, but I know eventually I can say I know who I am and what I want. This year has taught me something more about myself, more than I could imagine. Travelling solo has helped with healing from things that I’ve yet to let go off. I’ve constantly been circulating about the past and wondering what mistakes I made rather than changing them to ensure that I don’t make them again. With travelling I’ve been able to heal my mind, my body and soul. It’s like a perfect getaway rather than running from the problem. I tell myself that one day I’ll be living abroad on a tropical island where I can just embrace a new culture and explore. And so this will come true, with the hard work and dedication when I put my mind to it. It takes a lots of bumps and dead ends before reaching goals. But I believe it will be worth it as nothing comes easy. I’m trying to be someone that has true ambition for something that she loves, but also make a career out of it. I given my attention to more people than I could imagine and never took the time to acknowledge that I needed to focus on me to make my dreams come to light.